Tuesday, 15th of november

it was the 28th of september..

ow my god what a horrible day..

they asked me to be chief cashier..

I said yes, and that one condition I asked..

they couldn't keep it..

goddamn..

anyway.. I struggled through the octoberdays with my beloved chief cashier..

and there was november.. Oh how I hated it to be november..

and yeah how I condemned myself that I didn't quit the job..

I wasn't.. and I'm not able to replace somebody who's working so hard and so long already for Zara.. she worked here.. like.. for ages.. I'm still so new.. I'm still here since January.. oh god life ain't fair..

Hah, hear me.. complaining.. and at the same time being proud that I got this promotion so early.. but to me.. it's just too early.. it ain't funny anymore..

I need to have a little more fun in life. right?! of course!

well yeah, I went to my doctor yesterday, because wednesday the 2nd of november he had taken a little sample of my blood and the results weren't that good..

I have the cytomegalovirus that makes me feel very weak and extremely tired!

and at the same time I also do have anaemia.. but that's something I have like allmost my whole life.. it clarifies why my feet and hands are always like ice cubes and why I'm always looking sick, because my skin always looks so pale.

And because of my bad shoulder the doctor have me like three injections in my neck (oh well, I guessed and only felt it were only three.. my boyfriend told me it were like minimum five injections..) after the (for me) second injection I felt like getting so hot all over my body, like not comfortable hot.. and I got so dizzy I need to lay down for a while.. my blood pressure was ok, so let's go for the third injection.. auwth! my god.. I got the same.. needed to lay down and got all emotional.. -bleh I hate that-

my blood pressure was now like so low the doctor told me to keep it calm.. apparently I also was hyperventilating.. so the doctor sended me to a kinesitherapist for my shoulder and now I also have to do breath excersices..

see.. the doctor told me that I have hyperventilating problems because of severe stress!

time to look for another job I guess!

and of course, does somebody knows anything better against stress than:

- - time to go shopping! - -

Ow god I need to get to Primark soon!!!

and I'll update you about our house as soon as possible ;)

first things first..

- now I need to rest.. (I started looking for another job already)

- and tomorrow is my first kinesitherapy session..

- and thursday another working day (from 9.15 till 20.15.. phoowh)

wish me luck !