This.. is only the start.

It has been pretty chaotic the last few weeks.. and even more the last few days..

At the beginning of this month I decided to quit school and then everything became very chaotic..

Well, how should I begin..

When I had to go to high school I asked my mom if i could just become a beauty specialist.. now, my parents said "no", I had to go to high school first.. So I did. I went to study Productdesign for 3 years, so I got my bachelor. It was funny but I missed a few things, I wanted to learn decently how to work with photoshop, flash, aftereffects,.. all the adobestuff (or most of them). But the thing I really really wanted (like very bad) was becoming a beauty specialist. My mother wasn't happy with that, so I worked in summer to be able to pay those studies myself. I decided to start studying Graphic design. Definitely something for me, my mom was very happy, and me too.. although I still wanted to become a beauty specialist so bad!

I was able to skip the first year because I already had my degree in Productdesign. I learned a lot! more than I ever did while I was studying Productdesign.. Yeah, that felt pretty weird! but also verry good! certainly if you know I'm addicted to learning :D (note: only learning things that I'm interested in!!).. The first year I did this I also did evening classes to become an allround Make-up Artist (so also hairstyling included).. And then we came to this year..

Again I worked in summer and now I had enough money to pay the evening classes to became a beauty specialist! School (-> Graphic design) began somewhere around the end of september and the evening classes would start mid november.. I was like really looking forward to november! I wanted to stop my studies to become a graphic designer, but thought it wouldn't be wise because after this year I would have another bachelor.. Unfortunately I lost all of my motivation to become a graphic designer when I met my new teachers for interactive and webdesign.. bummer! I had too much work for school and didn't liked it anymore. I had started weekend lessons to become a stylist too, so when november came.. It got all too busy and I was like constantly tired because I couldn't get enough sleep, I couldn't practice enough for any of my classes.. So I was like really getting frustrated!

Not much I could do about it, cause I didn't wanted to quit my evening and weekend classes, so there was only one left.. graphic design.. but that one, I couldn't quit because my parents would be really furious, and I love them too much to upset them, to hurt them or what so ever..

I talked again with them about this issue and.. finally! I couldn't believe it, they told me that they would support me and that I could quit school. They weren't and still aren't really happy with that, but it's my decision.. and they could see now what I really want (I guess).. (-> their support)

It was a hard decision! really! because I would love to be a graphic designer.. but in the end, I have the skills now, I learned it all.. Allright, I do not have the degree. For me that's only a piece of paper, I don't need that, whatever all the companies and people are saying.. I want the skills! Not a stupid paper that tells you a bunch of lies.. (well, sometimes it's just a bunch of lies, that's only my opinion.)

Anyhow, it took a long time to decide what would be the best to do now. I wanted to arrange everything with school before christmas.. but yeah, obviously those people aren't that fast to fix everything.. (come on, they had like 3 weeks!)

Well, this is only a start..

hard part to read through,

next will be more fun I guess

well, I hope :D