another nice day

Today I've got my evaluation at work..

I didn't knew that before..

Debby, our chief cashier, seems very happy of my cash desk work.

She's constantly speaking about it :D She even said she's "extremely happy" about me being one of her cashiers.

Oh well! Hurray!!

Okey, maybe - I need to admit- she also says it that much because she knows I do not have a lot of self-confidence.. And let that just be the negative point in my whole evaluation today..

can't blame that.. That's always an issue.. :s

Well I already have been in a kind of therapy for that.. but nothing really works..

I just need to love myself a little more.. that's all.. I know.. and to bad it isn't that simple for me as it sounds.. god damn.. stupid self-confidence.. stupid self-love!

but hey, we need to stay positive :D It's a lot better then a few years ago.. prrrrr, let's just "sjjjtt" about that :D

On my evaluation, regardless one negative point (-> my self- confidence), there were also three positive points: I'm quit dynamic they said (although that's just a stupid thing to say..) and I'm very friendly and helpful (I do my best ;) ) and surprisingly.. I learn fast.. urgh.. me.. learning fast.. yeah.. right :D well.. I should prefer saying that I'm learning at a normal tempo but when I really understand something it's straight to the bottom of it.. yeah well, didn't explained that well in english didn't I? :D I just mean that it takes a little while before I get something, but when I really really understand it.. it's forever :)

Oh and just about that "being fast" thing.. maybe I should grow a little more self-confidence, don't you think? Well, yes.. 'cause.. I shouldn't say it to much.. ssjjjtt.. 'cause I'm really ashamed of it.. and I'm even more ashamed of it when I tell someone about it.. (but hey nobody's following :D ) But.. ssjjjtt.. I have an I.Q. above 130 ! yeah, you know what that means? they think I'm smart.. but like reeaaaaaally smart.. I was as shocked as you are now when they told me..

Enough of that! Some more good news! yeah today is a good day for me, filled of good news! give me more, I should say so.. Tomorrow, my boy is coming back home from Germany!! Hurray! I so loveeee him! I'm really in a weird mood today.. but when it feels good, why should I bother :D

Good night, sweet dreams and let tomorrow be as good (or even better) as today!

love u x