Tuesday, 15th of november

it was the 28th of september..

ow my god what a horrible day..

they asked me to be chief cashier..

I said yes, and that one condition I asked..

they couldn't keep it..

goddamn..

anyway.. I struggled through the octoberdays with my beloved chief cashier..

and there was november.. Oh how I hated it to be november..

and yeah how I condemned myself that I didn't quit the job..

I wasn't.. and I'm not able to replace somebody who's working so hard and so long already for Zara.. she worked here.. like.. for ages.. I'm still so new.. I'm still here since January.. oh god life ain't fair..

Hah, hear me.. complaining.. and at the same time being proud that I got this promotion so early.. but to me.. it's just too early.. it ain't funny anymore..

I need to have a little more fun in life. right?! of course!

well yeah, I went to my doctor yesterday, because wednesday the 2nd of november he had taken a little sample of my blood and the results weren't that good..

I have the cytomegalovirus that makes me feel very weak and extremely tired!

and at the same time I also do have anaemia.. but that's something I have like allmost my whole life.. it clarifies why my feet and hands are always like ice cubes and why I'm always looking sick, because my skin always looks so pale.

And because of my bad shoulder the doctor have me like three injections in my neck (oh well, I guessed and only felt it were only three.. my boyfriend told me it were like minimum five injections..) after the (for me) second injection I felt like getting so hot all over my body, like not comfortable hot.. and I got so dizzy I need to lay down for a while.. my blood pressure was ok, so let's go for the third injection.. auwth! my god.. I got the same.. needed to lay down and got all emotional.. -bleh I hate that-

my blood pressure was now like so low the doctor told me to keep it calm.. apparently I also was hyperventilating.. so the doctor sended me to a kinesitherapist for my shoulder and now I also have to do breath excersices..

see.. the doctor told me that I have hyperventilating problems because of severe stress!

time to look for another job I guess!

and of course, does somebody knows anything better against stress than:

- - time to go shopping! - -

Ow god I need to get to Primark soon!!!

and I'll update you about our house as soon as possible ;)

first things first..

- now I need to rest.. (I started looking for another job already)

- and tomorrow is my first kinesitherapy session..

- and thursday another working day (from 9.15 till 20.15.. phoowh)

wish me luck !

Thursday, 22th of september

OMG!!

I forgot to tell you about my cats being so sick!

three of them died.. the fourth victim was severely sick!!

but I couldn't see him dying like that so my boyfriend took him with him

to his "work".. when he got home he tried to feed our little friend..

but nothing worked.. until he tried to give our little friend a bit of milk!

oh boy! MILK saved our little buddy! he wanted to vomit.. my boy tried to force him to vomit..

and there they where! the little damn bastards! worms! god damn worms!

lucky my aunt is a very cat loving person! so my boy went to her (my aunt is also a pharmacist)

and they gave our little friend a pill to kill all those little worms in his body!

he got a little better but he didn't wanted to eat and stuff like that..

normally, they aren't allowed to enter the house, but hey! he was so ill!! :o

so I "imprisoned" him in my own room :) he got only a little better so we went to the veterinary.. a few days later he was again alive and kicking! My boyfriend and I didn't slept that much those nights.. and our little buddy insisted to sleep in between us.. if he slept for 5seconds.. so a few days later we released him and we also gave his 3 buddys a pill against those nasty worms!

now we called our little heroe "Floe" and he's so adorable!

He's very thankful! and he loves to sit on my legs! oh how I adore him!

He loves to be with us, and our 3 other cats are also a little more devoted..

but not as lovely as Floe..

Here's a picture of Floe, he loves to sleep on me :D

and Midi is looking like he's a little jealous, waiting his turn :)

but he still doesn't have the guts as Floe..

but he's cute as well, isn't he?

Our buddy sitting on the fake hedgehog is Streep, the most quiet of the four..

and we can't caress him as good as we can with the other 3..

Piraat is the youngest and loves to play! don't have a picture of him yet!

both pictures are taken with my cellphone but I had some troubles to get the first photo on my computer :D so had to use my webcam :D

well! good night!

xxx